Excited about the possibility of today to be the beginning of last semester mid terms. Calling all Gods to not ignore my marks requirements just because I have obsessed over other things way too much. Blessings for the greedy child. Today, Sunday and till End Semester results and beyond :)
Song because, pretty!
Dependence and Independence
Independence has been a word of pride and extreme honor for Indians. As women, specifically, it's a milestone of pride and honor to be able to achieve it.
A certain turn of life events made me realise that we, the financially and academically privileged women have probably never understood Independence.
Why is it that we still need biological and emotional biscuits to be thrown at us despite all the 'Independence'. Does that make us independent in the first place? Slowly slipping into a deep dark mind line where there is no light and a lot of dependence.
Did you know that the opposite of self worth is dependence? I figured, just today.
Of all the things I wished to be
I wished to be Clementine
Keep dyeing my hair
Keep pretending I am fine
As a child, adult, always been a fan of Valentines Day! This time even managed to convert S into a Valentine's week celebrating husband. But ofcourse fate HAS to blow out the candles before it's 12
Here comes tube test and job scare. Just when I thought that things are finally going my way! H and the home I dream of was just getting clearer on the horizon and poof; the horizon is as far as it seemed 3 years ago!
Dear God. Why!
So I will spend Valentines this year, convincing my manager's manager why I am a wrong fit for his bizzare plans for me and myself, that I can do the tube test without Anesthesia.
And you, say a small prayer for a boring Bangali 10-7 job hugging Kakima life for me please! I've had enough thrills and unconventional jazz.
Totally hoping for mediocrity and 'regular'. Please.
Watched the movie?
While I understand the emotion and passion most women felt after watching it, I kept questioning how it ended. It did not show a change of heart of the other genders, or of the women who preach marital slavery. It showed what a brave woman did and what all women must do. But, did not show a magical transformation of the society, or the family, or other women who 'belong' to the kitchen.
So either you live alone or you slave away to Sindoor glory?!
While I wholeheartedly loved the movie,
Would not watch again.
Too much reality causes too much anxiety.
Had to immediately go watch Sex and the City to feel better!
First story of this epic Adventure of a Lifetime!
2016 was when Coldplay first performed in India and I could not make it because of various factors like heartbreak, pocket crunch and utter disbelief in Global Citizen; money being the primary reason.
That day there was a decision, rather a prayer to be able to afford the next Coldplay in India, both money wise and life phase wise!
But when I tried my best and did not succeed with the tickets this time, A came to our rescue to take my dream up and up! So thankful for such amazing people in life ❤️
My pocket has a pinch, but heart is so full, primarily for being able to afford this and also, to be able to do this with S ❤️
Ofcourse my t-shirt is self painted because in my heart, the lights to guide me to Holud Taxi home! 💛🩶
P and I, this one for you two too, my OG Coldplay admirers! Shouted and sang a little extra for you! ❤️
Universe, Thank You :')
Visited Hyderabad airport today after 6 years for an expensive flight with layover (do the Math for non layover flight to Ahmedabad now)
Anyway, rather proud of myself of how mature or rather, cold (?) I've become.
For my future fans reading my memoir, Hyderabad was the work place of two prominent loves of your star's life and hence a place of frequent visit.
All of that until nothing remained and I avoided Hyderabad completely. 2018 November during Pooja's wedding was when I visited Hyderabad airport last time, for a layover flight to Raipur and the amount of physical, mental, emotional trauma it caused, made me almost pledge to never step foot here. Pondering over now, probably this was why I always said no to Gandikota plans (which I must visit soon-ish).
So, your star had an encounter with her star crossed Hyderabad today and had only happiness and chicken and full fat Pepsi! Time really heals you? Or teaches you to deal with memories? Or gives you something more prominent and potent today to feel and often, to worry about?!
Who am I to tell!
Grown up much to deal with all of this with my freshly home cooked red hair by S!
Kid you not! :D
1. What did you do in 2024 that you’ve never done before?
Podcast
Travelled international with parents
Got a company award on a very big stage
Tried and loved vape, regretted instantly
Bought a cooler
Got a big rod with a fancy camera go inside my vagina in the name of a fancy medical test
Spoke to 350+ girl students on studying
Drove a big car
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions and will you make more for next year?
None kept
Hoping to read atleast 12 books this year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Pooja. Can't believe it even as I type this.
5. What countries did you visit?
France, Italy, Switzerland, Vatican City, Belgium
In the country: Kolkata, Sikkim, Chandigarh, Kolkata, Chandigarh, Kolkata, Chandigarh, Kasauli, Rishikesh, Saharanpur, Delhi, Kolkata
6. What would you like to have in 2025 that you lacked in 2024?
Hreed
Job in Kolkata
7. What date from 2024 will remain etched upon your memory?
Watching the Eiffel with Maa
Big fight at Chandigarh
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Bidesh with parents.
Promotion (the uselessness of it came later)
9. What was your biggest failure?
Health! Absolutely rotten.
Not getting a single new job in 12 months!
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
None that showed. But the sick lifestyle has made its mark and how.
Also, constant anxiety.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Nothing interesting. New stupid phone?
Oh maybe ticket in black for a concert.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
No one's
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
FIL
14. Where did most of your money go?
Medicine and tickets.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Pujo.
16. What song/album will always remind you of 2024?
Geet Gobindo
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
1. Happier or sadder? Sadder
2. Thinner or fatter? Same
3. Richer or poorer? Poorer
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Yoga
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Nesha.
Worrying about everyone's death all day everyday. Sick.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
Wrote letters to Santa
Went home!
Slept in the Calcutta winter sun.
Ate good food.
Did not party.
Did not drink or smoke.
Went to Buchu's.
Spoke endlessly with Maa.
It was perfect.
21. Who did you spend most of the time on the phone with?
Maaaaaaaaa! <3
22. Did you fall in love in 2023?
No
23. How many one night stands in this last year?
None.
24. What was your favorite Tv programme?
Emily in Paris
Mamla Legal Hai
Ghar wapsi (again)
Yeh meri family
Baby Reindeer
Very Parivarik
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Yes
26. What was the best book(s) you read?
Read one Kakababu this year. One book. Shameful mobile phone addiction.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Amrito megher o bari :')
28. What did you want and get?
Europe with family
29. What did you want and did not get?
Better job
Bangladesh
H
30. What were your favorite films?
Inside Out 2
Laapata Ladies
31. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
30 till 40 :)
Stayed in Bangalore
S tried his bit. Gave me gold :')
Had fresh brewed beer with a lot of guilt.
Called the day off
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
H / Job in Calcutta
Both or either
33. What would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2024?
Team Zudio
34. What kept you sane?
Nothing. Went up to the extent of speed driving on a rage episode. Sick.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Paresh Pahuja
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
None
37. Who did you miss?
Calcutta
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Noone
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2024?
Quit smoking. Don't even start.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year?
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