Sunday, February 23, 2020

Mess



If you ever feel torn,
Come back to me.
If you ever need to mourn,
Come cry to me.
In sicknesses, in healths,
In one course meals, in all the world's wealths.
For betters, for worses,
For northern lights, for festive verses,
If you ever need to live,
Come sing to me.
If you ever need to love,
Come home to me.

-Abhishikta

Saturday, February 22, 2020

Bangla Bangali Etc.

Gratitude! The fact that I'm so thankful for it is a problem in itself but I absolutely HAD to mention the wonder, some of the people of Bengal are!

Early morning 6:30 was our train to Bolpur, 26th December, a day after Christmas, and Kolkata winter was at its peak for a change. This was the first time I was supposed to travel by General Class with unreserved tickets because of ticket unavailability. Instead of taking Bolpur express at 7:30, we decided on Kanchenjunga Express of 6:30 since it was an hour before. A train where majority of the people were travelling till Siliguri with immense luggage. I thought it would be fun like standing on the early morning empty Mumbai locals near the door.
Result?
We somehow stood at the door of the General class compartment. This 'standing' was absolutely insane! I had travelled in Bonga local several times before, but this experience was unreal. My mashallah height made everyone around me feel like mountains, people kept 'adjusting' in.  You have to travel in a train like that to know how little space you really need to live!

Wonder One: While I was so irritated at the people getting in over and over again, the others kept adjusting and letting them in. The uncle who sold steel plates, standing beside us, smiled with his pan colored teeth and said "shobai toh Bari jabe, jayga Kore dewai bhalo, Kar ki pelan Bari giye" (everyone has to go home, we have to make space. You never know who has what plans at home). Very nice of him to think that way. I had a moment of self judging. People can really surprise you.

Somehow the train started. I hardly had an inch to breathe. However, there was absolutely zero bad touch, zero trying to have a top view of the girls by the humongous men around. I was counting my hours to Bolpur, two hours!!! There were two young boys, probably workers, almost hanging almost standing at the door of the train who lit biri.

Wonder Two: Some man behind me, I could not even look at his face since there was no space to turn, shouted
"Maiyara asse, biri dhorash Kon shahoshe? Shorkar Mana korse taar upor" ( There are girls, how can you light a bidi. The Government has restricted this as well). There was zero retaliation. These boy immediately threw their bidis off. I felt so safe, so secured in that compartment where I could have been groped. People can really surprise you.

As I started, the fact that I'm thankful for these basic ways of life which should be the norm IS a problem. But since that's a topic for other day and we have miles to go to reach that day, when we feel safe and stop thinking of these incidents as "favours", For now, big shout-out to these wonderful people from that day :)




Friday, February 14, 2020

Pyaaaar

Valentine's Day
What used to be all about finding the perfect white/pink/red top for tuitions.
What used to be the college soulmate getting extra allowance for this day.
What used to be never disregarded despite the aantel inside
To what it has become.

This year however, with S forever gone. With corona virus almost ruining my gift to myself. However,
Almost laal! Lots of food. Airport.

And an ode to Travel. My one true love.
Travel, to fill your soul that's broken.
Travel, to shape your life that's shaken.
Travel, with or without a plan.
Travel, while you still can.


Wednesday, February 5, 2020

Sunsets!

There is this thing about Karma. People keep telling and singing praises of its existence. It has always slaughtered me in the most hurtful ways possible.
However, there is now, today, that it has for once taken my side. But then, I'm not happy about it. A story which I was made to exit long back approaches a setback. I'm not happy. I should have been.
My current story has already reached a setback. I'm not happy here anyway. By the time Karma does its turn here, I'll be long gone from this zone.
However, extremely thankful for a beautiful sunset, neck deep in water, arms wide open, breezing through the madness that life is.
Oh dear heart! How twisted can you be.
Oh dear heart! How weak can you be.
Oh dear heart! Hold on.