Ek Tirishe July

Dadu Dida’s anniversary! Till last year this used to be the National festival of the family

Because?

• .      Dida did not know her birthday and this was the only day she could celebrate 
•      Dida really was my Bollywood connect
• .      They were actally too much in love and for too long

I wonder how Dadu felt this year, I did not call because I did not know what to say. I know how it is to celebrate Anniversaries alone, I am sure for him, the pain was ten folds. Maa did not want to face him today and hence decided to reach Chattisgarh tomorrow. Dida woul have been so happy had I sent her a watch as well this year for Pujo, chakri peye prothom bar, like I did for him. I miss her man!

Back to lets-not-burden-people-mode, I did THIS today at work during a meeting which was cancelled. Yay!

You might have heard of Proust Questionnaire and Poindron’s  bigger and better version of it. Here I try these myself, because, yes I am a superstar :P
and so are you, try =]

1 – Write the first sentence of a novel, short story, or book of the weird yet to be written.
She wrote

2 – Without looking at your watch: what time is it?
Uhmm 12?

3 – Look at your watch. What time is it?
11:44

4 – How do you explain this — or these — discrepancy(ies) in time?
Hmmm? Why would I explain anything to anyone anyway?

5 – Do you believe in meteorological predictions?
I believe in no predictions :D

6 – Do you believe in astrological predictions?
One prediction, I want to believe in, rest, bleh.

7 – Do you gaze at the sky and stars by night?
Oh YES! WHENEVER I CAN! Back home it was easier with a window-side bed *_*

8 – What do you think of the sky and stars by night?
I cannot think beyond thinking about myself at any given time, space or trajectory. Stay Away.

9 – What were you looking at before starting this questionnaire?
Eclipse workbench. Horrible I know!

10 – What do cathedrals, churches, mosques, shrines, synagogues, and other religious monuments inspire in you?
Nothing inspires me much these days, however,
Cathedrals- School
Church- SCHOOOOOOOOL
Mosque-I wish I could enter one
Shrine- Peace
Synagogues-History book
Other monuments as in?
Crowded temples I find very dirty. No sentiment hurting intensions here.

11 – What would you have “seen” had you been blind?
Uhhmm? Cannot think of any classy or intellectual or funny answer now. Bleh.

12 – What would you want to see if you were blind?
Maa :)

13 – Are you afraid?
VERY

14 – What of?
Dying alone.

15 – What is the last weird film you’ve seen?
Weird? Okay I think Taxi Driver was weird and you can judge me to your heart’s content but, that I watched a long time ago, I think :S
Okay Sujoy Ghosh’s Ahalya was also weird and overrated, and ‘last’ maybe

16 – Whom are you afraid of?
Voldy baby :D

17 – Have you ever been lost?
Yes

18 – Do you believe in ghosts?
YES

19 – What is a ghost?
I don’t even want to know :O

20 – At this very moment, what sound(s) can you hear, apart from the computer?
Chocolate wrappers from the next bay! Happy Birthday someone :)

21 – What is the most terrifying sound you’ve ever heard – for example, “the night was like the cry of a wolf”?
The room door banging every morning after everyone leaves! They MUST put a stopper now :/

22 – Have you done something weird today or in the last few days?
THIS!

23 – Have you ever been to confession?
Oh yes, so many times :)

24 – You’re at confession, so confess the unspeakable.
R kotobar? R kotobhabe?

25 –Without cheating: what is a “cabinet of curiosities”?
I have jeeeeero idea, some ket book?

26 –Do you believe in redemption?
NO but I do believe in making up :)

27 – Have you dreamed tonight?
Last night? I had a proper nice sleep :)

28 – Do you remember your dreams?
At times

29 – What was your last dream?
Sucheta playing basketball and Titoo checking her out :D

30 – What does fog make you think of?
Dongargarh ^_^

31 – Do you believe in animals that don’t exist?
Hain? Whut? NO -_-

32 – What do you see on the walls of the room where you are?
Plain white BOOOOOORING walls -_-

33 – If you became a magician, what would be the first thing you’d do?
Go hooooome, land on Maa's lap ^_^

34 – What is a madman?
A man who is mad :D

35 – Are you mad?
Can’t you tell?

36 – Do you believe in the existence of secret societies?
I want to believe that they exist

37 – What was the last weird book you read?
Connect the dots

38 – Would you like to live in a castle?
Visit, Yes! Live like always, NO.

39 – Have you seen something weird today?
Codes :/

40 – What is the weirdest film you’ve ever seen?
Isn’t this a repeat question? ^_~

41 – Would you like to live in an abandoned train station?
Yes Yes Yes!

42 – Can you see the future?
No. Is it too dark? :(

43 – Have you considered living abroad?
I might have to -_-

44 – Where?
Janina baba. Denmark?

45 – Why?
Jhaaru Pochha Bread Butter

46 – What is the weirdest film you’ve ever owned?
Owned? Ille. Or maybe, Maine Pyar Kiya. Kabutar Ja Ja Ja :D

47 – Would you liked to have lived in a vicarage?
Yes, with a green lawn and white fence ^_^

48 – What is the weirdest book you’ve ever read?
Uhmmmm… Sounds like oshikkha much? :D

49 – Which do you like better, globes or hourglasses?
Hourglass! SO pretty ^_^

50 – Which do you like better, antique magnifying glasses or bladed weapons?
Ice Cream.

51 – What, in all likelihood, lies in the depths of Loch Ness?
Mermaids?

52 – Do you like taxidermied animals?
No. I do not like much of animals in any form. Except for Pugs ^_^

53 – Do you like walking in the rain?
Oh yes, knee deep rains, light rains, heavy rains, all rains ^_^
Minus the mud

54 – What goes on in tunnels?
Rocket Science

55 – What do you look at when you look away from this questionnaire?
Amit coding -_-

56 – What does this famous line inspire in you: “And when he had crossed the bridge, the phantoms came to meet him.”?
Famous? Why do I not know this?

57 – Without cheating: where is that famous line from?
New levels of gawar-hood I have attained :D

58 – Do you like walking in graveyards or the woods by night?
Yes! YES. The graveyard stunt I might be able to do alone though.

58 – Write the last line of a novel, short story, or book of the weird yet to be written.
'All was well'

59 – Without looking at your watch: what time is it?
1

60 – Look at your watch. What time is it?
12:30 :D

And the little too little, evening bus rides

Let's Waste Time, Chasing Cars!

Nisa reminded us on the group on Saturday, while I was at the backwaters (thanks to ‘bideshi’ Aunty :P ), the second month Anniversary away from home, that we were at Shantiniketan on that day last year. How time flies!

The trip to Kochi was beautiful for many reasons, was awkward to the world because, well, but then I am back to my I-don’t-care-what-the-world-calls-me mode and Maa has been forever agreeing to whatever keeps me happy. Aunty was her kindest best and I absolutely loved the Purple House I landed to. Maa had a very surprising ‘bari o peyechhish Maa o peyechhish’ stance when I told her how the house looks EXACTLY like ours! :D

Spicejet decided to delay their flight and I got to see the beautiful Bangalore lights from up above the world so high, for once Bangalore decided to be kind to me. Talking of kindness, God was extremely kind to me on Saturday with the clear blue sky. YaY! Aunty was the perfect host, woke me up with a cup of Boost on both the mornings, even after a tough night of losing, I still got woken up on Sunday with a smile and Boost and one million Breakfast options :)

I wish I had taken my camera, however, Aunty has this photo with Hattimatim-Tim, which “wont matter to anyone” as I said on a specific sending the photo topic but the why-not stance of Tim to everything and the indifferent attitude, I could somewhat relate to someone I knew (KNEW, YES). Something that I should stop doing but I cant and I wont. Then there was this ferry ride at night, and the river (river?) which happens to be my wallpaper for the last 8 months, and the wind and the news of death. I kind of bring bad luck maybe. Weird. Also, I heard a voice on speaker which sounded JUST THE SAME . Such a retard I am man! -_-

And I was reminded of this little thing I drew last November but rather than feeling embarrassed, I was smiling, not happily, but I was smiling. Told ya! RETARD. And nirlojjo :D

When I left Kochi, I was a little sad because of the one million could have beens all over my mid. The Bangalore airport’s main gate somehow looks like Kolkata’s but then, when you cross them, you won’t see yellow and black taxi-s. Met Asif at the airport, who came from Kolkata after Eid. He had this twinkling home eyes! Well. With millions of thoughts while I was zooming through the first few BEAUTIFUL kilometers of Bengaluru, Sejuti called to ask “khabar tulbo tor jonno?”. I cannot begin to explain how comforting it was after feeling very not-deserving-enough.Thank God for the little mercies of care ^_^

There are a million others things to write about but then, there is this.PG which wont serve me food after 5 minutes. It is not everyday that you are taken to this pretty waterfront restaurant that has pretty lights and good food
So TADAAAAA!
To Aunty, Thank You so much
To Babapdada, RIP
To Maa, I MISS YOU
To Kochi, You helped me come to a decision point, I now know, I was right all the time.

To South India, I do not like you still.
To Growing up much, Cheers.

P.S. Carrot cakes do not taste like Carrot! They are lovely :P

Kaisi Teri Khudgarzi :)

Some things happen only in movies they say. Such is this last scene. I remember watching Yeh Jawani Hain Deewani on the last exam day of 4^th or 5^th sem. The moment I watched it I could relate the character of Bunny with someone I had the HUGE-est crush on! I so wanted to watch the same movie again with the certain him, who, like Bunny, was too first world to watch a Yash Raj movie back then. Those were the days when I started to believe that movies take their ideas of characters and ideas from real life only. Today, right after office on a distant land, when I watch this movie again, at my rare empty room in my 4 sharing new found pseudo home, I cry buckets because today I know these things happen only in movies! The Bunnys in real life are too self sufficient to think of double tickets and too cruel to give away the fuel to live to people they have claimed to take to the moon. Sigh.

My friends would burst out in gyaan scenes at this and true, you cannot have everything. The good colleague has rightly told me “Zindagi ka 25% tumhara best beeta hai, ab jitnabura ho raha hai toh complain matt karo, harr samay achha nahi ho sakta” and hence I complain a little less these days. Even at the 6.5months of no looking at specific shops, I complain not.

Since it is Friday night and I have very little readers, I will write about two women who have scared me to death. Ankita and Aritri however reassured me and my sick  sudden worries with “Ami niye jabo hospital”.

Story1:

A woman called Miss Meera Bagchi! She lived sometime in the 1940s. A shy school teacher, who refused to marry because she wanted to take care of her widowed mother and siblings. After  trucking off all the responsibilities correctly, the woman died all alone inside her big house at around 70, all alone. In those days of no mobiles phones, the relatives got to know about it after a week, the neighbours, after 3-4days.

Story2:

A woman called Miss Kalpana Bhanja. Spent her whole life giving away Oscar winning dialogues like “Open the window let the environment come inside the class” died within one week of her breast cancer being discovered because she had no one to take care of or notice, or instruct, or guide to a doctor.

I can be horribly pessimistic and repulsive I know and I do not give a damn about anybody’s judgment anymore. Except for Maa who will probably not like the incompleteness and a LOT of Bollywood is in store in the next 10-15years. Ah we shall see. Soon -_-
The only good thing that I got in 2015 are my Pune Peeps (When I say Pune, I include Mumbai and BTM) who call me in the middle of the night and do not get irritated if I sound too broken or high. Something for everyone yes! Not for too long though. There are a few hot scenes happening at Pune these days and I wish I could be there to get the little laughs, Thank God for the free phones and their patience.

Also, I am looking forward to March where I will cry the Happy Tears when the childhood friend ties the knot. Also to Kochi that has a purple house which exactly matches home! Life is good? Not exactly but do we have a choice? I have already gained a few kilos and Aunty said its depression. Cholbena toh!!!! Abhimanyu was stern on’ Apni Khushi Apne Haath’ and Sejuti has a patent ‘O parle tui o parbi’, yet, the heart wants what the heart wants! For now however, the heart wants a little respect after the major insult slaps. So here’s to the unachievable Red Saari-Red Bindi day, the already Gypsy life where you drink 2 bottles of beer right in front of your Team Lead, for free, and he points you to another bottle, with rabbit meat, saying, ‘Sharmao matt’. Cheers!

Also, 

Eid Mubaraq! Dua mein yaad rakhna _/\_

"Its best that you have no hopes from my side" :)

And when you find that person, I hope he never leaves you :)

हम ना रहे तो याद करोगे, समझे ?

For once, I post a song not because I want to send someone any message but because this song is soooo beautiful and so is she! Oh so pretty she is! *_*

Ki shundorrrrrrr babarebaba!!!!!!! *_*

Then why are you on your own tonight?

There are these photos that I saw on facebook of dear old city of joy and I got all dippy eyed. Kotodin dekhina. But then,  “just 104 days to home” is as optimistic as I can be right now! The Bangalore people have a strange talent of making every food item taste EXACTLY the same! I kind of enjoy this and have my daily laughs at the ‘gota begun’ or ‘sewai er chowmein’. I absolutely HATE the conductors here though who have a tendency to touch your hand to ask for tickets every time. Ridiculous practices. But then, such is life J

Although Kolkata stands as the sole bearer of all of my happy ‘first’ moments, Bangalore helped me tick off a few of my wishlist items, the second piercing and the first police station visit (YES! And nail biting conversation with a pooolish). Yay! The others items would be ticked off soon I am sure but there is a little pain of not being able to share the achievement of passing a certain corporate exam or the shock(read surprise) at coding a certain difficult thing to a certain someone who sits in the nearby state right now, too high and too happy to listen to anything at all. But then, such is life J

Never Beg as my current Whatsapp dp says and Ankita keeps on telling me. Never Beg! Although the weekend mornings can be brutal, very brutal but that is how you grow up right? With or without happy dual photos or reality, with or without you. But then, such is life J