weird timing.......... it had to be shreemoyee......

when i took the call.... there was no "ki korchhiiish" (her usual dialogue)

she said: "listen ov i really need to tell you this (she went on without giving me a chance to respond) ..... you are my first best friend and i think you need to know this first................."

no i won't write the rest but the starting diagolue really made me numb............ its not that i don't know what she is to me or what i am to her but yeah... knowing it all over again made me happy.... rather very happy........

and if you are just about to comment... with a snobbish face and mind... don't even bother to do it....

Adieu

Because you were there,
I got one more reason to smile,
I got one more friend to high five,
I got one more shoulder to shed my tears,
I got one more gem to call me ‘dear’.
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Because you won’t be there,
I’ll lose all that till now I called ‘life’
I’ll lose the advice to strive,
I’ll lose the shouts when I’m wrong,
I’ll lose the inspiration to be so strong.
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You came, you conquered,
Touched our hearts to the core.
Oh, my favourite teacher,
I wish I could know you a little more.
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-Abhishikta Chakraborty

yippie.............. i'm finally going tomorrow.... but the only bad part is.... prepaid doesn't work there... wtf.........how will i manage? being completely out of touch with 'my' world is something i have not experienced for quite some time now..
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and in case i die....... please do the following........

• Prerna please arrange "shukto" and "chhanar dalna" for Shreemoyee and "chingri maachh" for Satabdi in my "shraddho"...
• Satabdi just tell Ritwika why I was so upset with her and shall forever be if I come back... but yeah... she is special....... you can add a few 'very' to it
• Please make sure that M.S. Jahan stays happy hamesha......
• Satabdi present a "be together always" card to Sayanee and Rik on my behalf
• Pataofy Aritri's mom
• Shreemoyee... tell R about me.............

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thats it.... thanks everyone for being there.... i hope to see you all in 10 days... but in case i don't... miss me..

and Shreemoyee and Satabdi and Ritwika and Debjani and Munnididi and Mejdamoni and Chintudada...love you all........

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don't cry Prerna... love you too ;P

Bbye.... (thats what Abira miss said and never came back to Dio) so......

'See You' everyone... in 10 days... hopefully :)

Love

Ov

The Thin Line

Tue- Physics Class at around 6:40 pm
Me whispering to Satabdi :

"Janish....There is a very thin line between being 'unimportant' and 'unwanted'....."

and I knew by her expression that she agreed totally.... our Physics sir's next dialogue "Abhishikta onko ta hoyechhe?"... stopped me from continuing on .... so here it is.

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There really is a very very thin line between being unimportant and unwanted... i don't know which way it hurts more... but either ways... it tears one to pieces.... with a feeling that cannot be expressed... a sense of humiliation, a sense of disappointment, a sense of shock, a sense of realisation and a sense which tells you that whatever happened over those years of togetherness and understanding and whosoever you thought completes your world never existed.... or rather you never existed for them............ here comes another hypocrisy.............. i have always believed in 'unconditional love'... in whichever way...... but yeah... when you get back everything that only existed in your worst nightmares... you kind of question yourself all over again.

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The worst part is when you stand on the line and the mess around you makes things worse than ever.

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I want to write more but I won't...because it's not worth it.... it really is not.

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Dear readers.... if this did not make sense to you.... nevermind... because it was never meant to ....and "*******".... I'm very disappointed with.... Ah...forget it... as always.

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Stay Happy

Your Beloved

I am ,

Some one who did not care,
To pay back your innumerable debts,
Your beloved… daughter.

Someone who forgot,
About all the promises of good old days,
Your beloved… friend.

Someone who talked behind your back
And never left a chance to let you down,
Your beloved… student.

And today,
Shamelessly I declare,
That I still am,
And no matter what,
Shall forever be

Your beloved.

-Abhishikta Chakraborty

Until...

this was the first poem by me which was published in voices... i still remember the day... during my class x 'test'...... this poem brings back good memories....


Life was blessing,
All was well
Until...

Everyone seemed nice,
In my heart they dwelt
Until...

Life's crossroads were far off,
The pitfalls seemed distant,
The tentions and shocks were miles away,
The relations were not strained,
Until...

All was perfect,
On persons I used to depend,
There was not a nanosecond of loneliness,
Everything caused the love and friendship to deepen,
Until...

Yes,
To the happines, to the laughs,there was no stop,
Until...
The masks fell off.

-Abhishikta Chakraborty

"Mathematics is like love; a simple idea, but it can get complicated."


wondering at new aantelish self??? nah guys.. my maths sir gave this dialogue today... early in the morning... 7:30... yes thats early morning for me...and i suddenly 'woke up' ... i couldn't help admiring the idea...


yes... i love love and as a matter of fact i love maths (don't make that face satabdi and don't go by my marks friends) but it keeps getting complicated...

Help Me Win

Hold my hand and walk with me through life,
Its dark and lonely,
Help me to survive

Wake me up, I’ve been sleeping too long,
Living in a dreamscape
Where I don’t belong.

Whisper a song into my ears,
And with your gentle touch
Wipe my tears

I’m fading away, call my name,
I’m forced to play
Life’s unfair game.

Open the door and let me in,
Let me find the light within.
Oh please, help me win.

-Abhishikta Chakraborty