Saturday, September 11, 2010

Anamika

I saw her today, a bit taller than the last time we met and then, I noticed her heels…




She was always a sweetheart, Anamika, my best friend. While the world got themselves pampered at beauty salons, my dearest preferred to spend her bit on me. We became friends back then when I had my front teeth missing and she had hers, popping out of the upper jaw. Intelligent, shy, loving- that was Anamika for me throughout the 15 years of my school life and then…

She got admission in the best engineering college of Kolkata and I moved to Delhi to do literature. The seven times a day phone calls started reducing their numbers, our conversations, letters, mails, letters became limited to festivals and formal wishes. While I got my first job as a Montessori teacher, I had no idea whatsoever about Anamika, my oldest friend. Anamika was the one who could actually read the pain of this Montessori teacher who grew up hearing that she is born to write and I thanked God for the irony. While I got busy with my life- two children and chauvinist, dominating husband, I never had enough time to even wonder how Anamika has been.” Is she as lean a she was? Is she happy?” Anamika somehow dissolved in the dusty warmth of my golden days…



She wore a white salwar with beautiful silver bangles and yes, I saw it correctly, she actually had kohl in her eyes, my Angel who did not even know how mascara differs from blush on, today, has changed with straight silky hairs that once resembled jute sticks. She was standing outside a mall. I thought I would call her but I looked at myself and what I have become with a sari that had a few holes, tanned skin, hard tough hands, a 10 year old watch which said I need to reach home before my husband does. “Will she recognize me today? Today, when the ‘Princess’ of Anamika has died?” I thought…



Before I could decide, I saw her going away in a black car. She went and I lost her yet again but this time, maybe for good...

Thursday, September 9, 2010

one long month... one long long month... not really though...
thank you eveyone for making college bearable
cheers :)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

coTHE WHOLE IDEA... THEME... MOST OF THE THINGS ABOUT THIS ONE CAME OUT OF SUBHAJIT DASGUPTA'S CREATIVE MIND... THE SONG VERSION OF THIS ONE (BY HIM) IS WAY BETTER


You were not more beautiful,
Than the many angels smiling above
But the stolid, the rustic girl I saw,
Somehow made me fall in love.
The way you held my hand back then
The promises made aloud,
I knew you were mine biatch
All mine, without a doubt.

The crimson dawns of happy songs,
When times were not tough,
You leaned against my chest and said
'I’m all yours my love'.
The day you left,
I was torn apart and cried,
But I hid it all within
The salty poison didn’t come out of my eyes.


You walked away
Left me all alone,
With a desire to get back
The bitch I have forever known.
Yes I need you,
Like I’ve never needed anyone before,
But I won’t call you back my love
I’m just too strong though weak from  core.


You are a part of me,
The part that can never part,
So enchanting, so alluring,
So incredibly beautiful,
You still are
And This is known to few,
So  let me accept all over again
… Biatch, I LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

I saw him kissing his grandson again
In mid winter, his eyes showed me the rain.
After forty long years he is still the same,
One 'victorious' man of life's game.

The old pile of yellow books,
The sepia tinted memories,
Back to the fun filled college days,
Of the semi love stories.

And today yet again
He left on his 'jet plane'
This time forever
Forever... yet again.
I woke up to get a message from Titoo saying “Ato ghrli,adda marli… tao no new blogs?”


And I wondered yes, I actually have not blogged for a long long time primarily because my “Ben” dearest is sad…

What do I write about anyways…

College has finally become “FUN”

I actually regret telling Satabdi two thousand times ‘I’m not going to your class, your classmates don’t like me much”- I loved the whole gang for the ‘SURPRISE” and making my birthday so special, I actually danced … ahem ahem (details not required)…

Bunking, lying- all is done in just 3 weeks- from mani square to nabina to south city to MC D to coffee house to jhilpar to dakshinapan to freshers to teachers’ day to rehearsals to dramas to nothing at all to what not and where not… I’m actually loving college… I’m loving the love around be it Chirki’s ‘spark’ or the ‘bad boy’ I ‘had’ a semi crush on…fights- tears- heartbreaks- friendships- all in all- the next four years wont be as bad as I thought they would be….

While I still miss Shreemoyee, I finally love my class and absolutely crazy friends and the “ECE-CSE-IT” bond and most importantly, the place called “Pailan” has finally become “my college”… if only “V”ictory came the way I wanted it to…

P.S. I love you Shreemoyee

And

Satabdi, Moulika, Sir, Olivia, Hirak, Saougata, Subhajit, Sayan, Wriju, Sahin, Arindrajit, Golu, Gunjan, Dipanajn, Soham, Banhijit, Jelly, Arjun… and so very many people…

Thank You