সব রেকর্ড করা থাকবে তোমার অন্তর্বর্তী শূন্যতায়

Fear

Can you imagine living in fear? Every second of everyday? I know a handful of people in my family living in such fear for quite some time. Some of these fears are life threatening, some, life altering , few, dream crashing, soul numbing, unbelievable, uncommon, rare and mine; repeated. 

Fear of losing Kolkata has been a theme. To get something on a platter after much toil and then, someone, ready to just take it off. Celebrated too soon?

Who can tell which fear is worse than the other? 

I can only hope for the fears to end. Wanting to not wake up praying for the day to pass by without any bad news for the whole of 2026 now. It is June already. Time for the year to turn around and be the best. Please!

Just let life be boring, usual, machh bhaat! I don't need extraordinary. Ordinary and usual would be great. Gods?

Chapter 8: KDC!

Childhood me did not believe in pay cuts. Childhood me won't believe we willingly took a pay cut. Childhood me is so disappointed.

But childhood me does not know of gut wrenching fear and eye soaring tear yet. Cutie! Promising to make it up to the childhood me someday. 

Rain watching from 14th floor at Newtown with a lower pay today, for atleast, this bit is what even childhood me had always wanted (touching wood profusely with a loud sigh). Jai Hok.