Thursday, April 30, 2009
Am I Worth It?
"its for the one who is my inspiration of creating this blog...
abhishikta...this is for u....."
i am deeply touched dear..... and i keep asking myself the question all over again... am i worth it?
i mean... look at me??? short, ugly, fat, boisterous.....a loser who doesn't accept and therefore speaks random shit just to hide the deep dark secrests of being another dimbo.... am i really worth it all?
thanks prerna... today was one of my utter gloomy days but your post made me smile... thanks "hubby" :P hugs
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
I've always hated the two words.......girlfriend and boyfriend....I think it sounds really down market and cheap..........For all those with a ‘what an aantel’ look at me right now….. “my man”, “my girl” sounds just perfect.... don’t they??????????
wait a minute... don't even bother to answer if you don't agree because i hate arguing with idiots
Monday, April 27, 2009
I Wonder If This Is Love
- ok... sid is someone i totally respect for his love. he is truly, madly, deeply in love with decencydi.... god bless them....its kind of strange and really brings the lump to my throat to see their love suceed irrespective of the thousands of obstacles starting from sid’s mom to long distance relationship to what not… I totally respect their love but somehow I feel that sid’s side of love is way more…. I’m, sorry if you are reading this….but yes, I do thik you love decencydi more….i really wish and hope and pray to see them together "forever".... siddharth's one of the shortest bit of the thousands of notes and posts and poems and videos and photos says "its kinda hard trying to smile sometimes when ye know its gonna be a while before ye see the reason again!".... now i fell for that..... trust me, both of you deserve all that you ever want... god bless!!!
- rik's recent post "...I was the one whose soul is being tormented by such ideas, by these ceaseless pangs, when perhaps she was oblivious to my absence, she perhaps was not feeling it as much as I did, perhaps she was not as restless as I am,..." now.... in their case, as amatter of fact i know that rik loves sayanee way more... nomatter how much sayanee get depressed and down after the shreya addya incident.... the fact that sayanee is an old friend and therefore more close doesn't change the fact that rik's side of love is far more... but yes, i know sayanee too feels deeply for him....so good luck to you too..... hope to see you together forever.
- sangborto "abhi, aami ria'r shathe break up kore nebo"....." .... i was like wtf dude.... this must be the 110th time of your make and break up.... in their case... i was more concerned about ria because ria is deeply in love with him and i'm sure she won't be able to take it... in thier case... ria's side of love is greater and great.... nevermind... good luck both of you... and this time..... hope to see you happy 'saath saath or alag alag'... HAPPY DILSE..
- i bet you would have slapped munnididi if you could see the way she behaves with "***" da ..... i mean look at him... ever so commited... the ultimate brother (in-law), the ultimate lover but no... her hopes and expectations from him never seems to end.... but they are together... commited.... though he seems or rather is way more commited and his 'babai' 's search seems no end...... i know she is my sister and i completely love her for what she is... i really pray and hope that i can officially call "***"da... jijs
- "x"'s love for honeydi and her rejection was one of the most pathetic and touchy love story ever.... i won't write more about it since i should not.... but yes.... x's love really deserves a bow
- look at deep, nerd turned poet and satabdi doesn't seem to care... i mean she does... but the practicalities are making her take the 'right' decisions which i would have taken as well but i (and i know even she) feel(s) bad for deep who is still counting on her and hoping for something thats impossible..... i know deep's side of love is poetically beautiful and satabdi's decision is practically correct... life is hard... may you two take the best decision... god bless!!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Election and Kolkata
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Reunion
i had a blast... enjoyed every bit ofit and totally agree to Srijani..............
yes, we thought we love Dio and the past year made us hate it but after meeting LIFE we realised that it was not Dio we were in love with but it was US .... the tie which made us jump at the morning alarm which seems th worst thing ever these days, which made us laugh at our red marks which today gathers 'you are a bad girl' look
love you all.... muaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Monday, April 13, 2009
....... so here's the poem I was completely in love with after Madhyamik when I had nothing else to do but read and I read the two most wonderful books of the world.......... thanks Rik for writing your article which reminded me of putting this up.
the poem is by aPersian poet Saib-e-Tabrizi translated into English by Josphine Davis. The English translation is not a literal translation of the original.
Ah! How beautiful is Kabul encircled by her arid mountains
Her gusts of powdered soil, slightly sting my eyes
But I love her, for knowing and loving are born of this same dust
My song exhalts her dazzling tulips
And at the beauty of her trees, I blush
How sparkling the water flows from Pul-I Bastaan!
May Allah protect such beauty from the evil eye of man!
Khizr chose the path to Kabul in order to reach Paradise
For her mountains brought him close to the delights of heaven
From the fort with sprawling walls, A Dragon of protection
Each stone is there more precious than the treasure of Shayagan
Every street of Kabul is enthralling to the eye
Through the bazaars, caravans of Egypt pass
One could not count the moons that shimmer on her roofs
And the thousand splendid suns that hide behind her walls
Her laughter of mornings has the gaiety of flowers
Her nights of darkness, the reflections of lustrous hair
Her melodious nightingales, with passion sing their songs
Ardent tunes, as leaves enflamed, cascading from their throats
And I, I sing in the gardens of Jahanara, of Sharbara
And even the trumpets of heaven envy their green pastures
-A Thousand Splendid Suns
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Chal koi ni yaar
i'm disgusted with all the sad faces around me sulking about stuff that seems so damn stewpid!!!
Friday, April 10, 2009
Happiness... a boxful of crayons
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Kuch Kam
i love this song... heard it after a long time today and the same old feelings rather the same old me just got passed the days when the worls moved much slower..... when the couples, hand in hand at the roadside were "cute" and not "cheap"... when 'du taka' were more than enough for "phuchka" and not the pizza at dominos... those were the days... as Ma fondly calls and while I make a BIG face while she does.... yes Ma, those really were... THE DAYS..
Kuch Kam Roshan Hain Roshni
Kuch Kam Geeli Hain Baarishein
Kuch Kam Lehrati Hai Hawaa
Kuch Kam Hai Dil Mein Khwaahishein
Tham Sa Gaya Hai Ye Waqt Aise Tere Liye Hi Thehra Ho Jaise
Kuch Kam Roshan Hain Roshni
Kuch Kam Geeli Hain Baarishein
Kuch Kam Lehrati Hai Hawaa
Kuch Kam Hai Dil Mein Khwaahishein
Tham Sa Gaya Hai Ye Waqt Aise Tere Liye Hi Thehra Ho Jaise
Kyo Meri Saas Bhi Kuch Phiki Si Hai Dooriyo Se Hui Nazdiki Si Hai
Jaane Kya Ye Baat Hai Har Subah Ab Raat Hai
Kyo Meri Saas Bhi Kuch Phiki Si Hai Dooriyo Se Hui Nazdiki Si Hai
Jaane Kya Ye Baat Hai Har Subah Ab Raat Hai
Kuch Kam Roshan Hain Roshni
Kuch Kam Geeli Hain Baarishein
Kuch Kam Lehrati Hai Hawaa
Kuch Kam Hai Dil Mein Khwaahishein
Tham Sa Gaya Hai Ye Waqt Aise Tere Liye Hi Thehra Ho Jaise
Phool Mehke Nahi Kuch Gumsum Se Hai
Jaise Ruthe Hue Kuch Ye Tum Se Hai
Phool Mehke Nahi Kuch Gumsum Se Hai
Jaise Ruthe Hue Kuch Ye Tum Se Hai
Khooshbue Dhal Gayi Saath Tum Ab Jo Nahi
Kuch Kam Roshan Hain Roshni
Kuch Kam Geeli Hain Baarishein
Tham Sa Gaya Hai Ye Waqt Aise Tere Liye Hi Thehra Ho Jaise
- Dostana
Phew!!!
Abhishikta's Law
"Opposites attract but they don't make successful couples"
now don't ask me further about it... the examples will kill me otherwise... right Satabdi? and Munnididi? and everybody?
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
A Happy Me
unlike your last blog
Good-writer kachhe erakam expect-o kori na... Specially amar boner kachh theke to noy-i...
i told u ota porona
Kuntal: Porlei ba ki jay ase... Ami to toke change korte bolchhi na... Gyan-o dichhi na.... Just bolchhi je personally amar bhalo lage ne... Ektu hayto shocked-o hoyechhi... Kintu seta ekantoi amar byaktigato byapar.... Bollam to Tor jadi mone hoy it was 'OK' then its OK
Monday, April 6, 2009
For Want Of A Brother.......
Well, my need, want, desire for an elder brother is as old as old can be.... yes an ELDER one.... and this desire was lost in some corner of my heart but yesterday
we went to bordipishi's place.... while returning, guddudada and i were slightly behind everyone. Guddu dada pulled me saying " Guria ei deke aay to re" and came to my right.. later i realised that actually a few roudy boys were coming on their bicycles all the way whistleling and singing....
this small and normal act really touched me... generally i face these situations alone and face no problem at all...i mean at kolkata.. 'jhari mara' is so bloody common but nobody ever protected me that way... really....
i always wanted an elder bro...
i mean who does not like
- mejdamoni's sentu dialogues and words which will make you feel important and wanted which is a rare thing for me.. the later part
- sumandada's care which made him walk all the way to a very long distance just because tumpadidi wanted mehendi for herself at 10pm or begged to her to but a goldbracelet of 50000 bucks just because she said "dada eta ki shundor na"
- long hours on cycle (childhood) and bike (now) with chintudada and his 'secret' stories of ever changing girlfriends and other stuff ( not to be disclosed here)
- siddharth bhaiya's care for sushmita or his anger on hibadi which so vividly shows his love
now... i dont really know why i wrote this and this makes no sense to me... now when i read it again.... i know i am insane....
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Where Are They
- Aritri's nonsense staring and senseless parts
- Ritwika's moodswings and dual emotions
- Satabdi's khimchi
- Sayanee's mannats and cardiganless winters
- Indrani's long hours of class studies and our frustrations
- Nisa's kilos and kilosof noodles
- Tanya's skirts and our regular source of humour
- Aditi's 'lesbigiri' and our comments
- Rituparna's bhao before simging
- Aratrika's papiyatalk
- Balaka's dancing 24x7
- Payel's slangs
- Soumita banglabhasha
- Debjani's sarcasm
- Dona and Dipannita's jodi
- Sania's confidence
- Tulika's overcon
- Anushree's dancing
- Sanghamitra's innocence and at times too much of it ;)
- Prerna's nagging
- Bidisha and Proma's 'fangiri'
- Monalisa's aatlami
- Sanchari's jealousy ( she got the highest in madz though)
- Atreyi's sense of humour and everything
- Samragni's choreography and rajarshik stories
- Srijani's 'ma giri'
- Upama's 'dadagiri'
- Shalini's boyfriendtalk
- Satasree's smile
- Megha's friendship
- Tulika Suchandra's being 'ramgorer chhana'
- Anasuya's help during exams
- Ria's insults
- Debolina's disgusting acts (i hated them)
- Shreya's 'hairnoodles'
- Shrija's jharu
- Sucharita's basketballs
- Sejuti's stories and excuses after getting caught
- Ipsita's laughter
- Sudipta's kisses
- Debbithi's over the top acts and inlis
- Jeshmi's porashona :P
- Malini's 'bhater golpo'
- Debosmita's 'vinit..........'
- Sucheta's helping almost everyone with projects and labfiles
- Sampurna's face during maths exam
- Trina's food attacks
- Amrita's nautanki
- Nikita's 'ghash'talk
- Anwesha's ingriji
- Ria's bhat
- Shrabasti's simplicity
- Protiti's confusing bhat
- Shreya's wonderfool marks ;)
- Sapna's handwriting
- Imrana's kheer
- Raina's crying
- Nikita's dance
- Zeenat's forthright attitude
- Nitu's presence
- Aradhana (evything about her)
- Shreemoyee and 'babygiri'
- Moumita's one in a month presence
- Sangeeta's breakups
- Shreya's tiffin
- Sayoni's rings
- Ankita's 'scientistgiri'
- Anindita's 'my heart will go on'
- Madhumita's madness
- Roshni's 'L'
- Khushboo's marks
- Samreen's fights
- Priyanka's 'tum bin'
- Pooja's extra pounds
- Ashabari's 'assberry'
- Upasna's odissi
- Piyankna's dailogue 'ei baar first hobo'
- Arpita's 'biriyani smell'
- Anindita's hairs
- Tapamita's bhat
- Shreyanka's 'i am a good girl' status
- Poulomi's kicking Ria
- LIFE
Thursday, April 2, 2009
THE SESSION THAT WAS...
my aims changed like seasons (as always) with mbbs and engineering and mass and com and law and psychology and what not.... at the end of every dream the key was always extremely hard work and so... I GAVE UP ... i know i am shameless .. it doesn't even bother me...i just feel sad for MA
and finally.... FINALS dude.... gosh....preparations were worse than ever.... i studied like mad in the last two weeks (as always) but this year was different.... the books seemed impossibly huge.... i was almost sure to repeat the year... thankfully... all my superstitions worked.... all my papers were good enough to get a 24 (wondering at my standard???)
last exam brought the big shock of practical exam a day after.... yesterday was chem practical and today was bio and physics.... thank god... they went kind of well.... i made the stupidest mistake ever in bio... moron me... sir said " it is good to know yourself" mean comment but bio could have been better... finally xamzzup.... finally got a chance to land my ass infront of the comp.
all in all.... session was .... ah wateva!!! but yeah as ma puts it, i ruined it the most. a dangerous game will soon begin from next year again... well only if.... i pass.... fingers crossed but for now..........
CHEERS :)