THE SESSION THAT WAS...

Exams are up... yes they really are... phew... and a sigh of relief... or may be not....

ever since i stepped in class xi, there has not been a single moment of pure joy.... i know i have been out of touch with books this year like never before but... none of the past years have been more depressing.

The session started with 697 which gave Ma a permanent disappointment followed with depression and more depression of everything that happened... studies did not make sense... it really didn't and the feeling of making the biggest mistake of my life by taking science and listening to them made life worse..... first term passed and BINGO i flunked.... in chemistry in second term.... i mean i flunked... it was very much expected though but even then, accepting it was tough.... trust me, science is not for me... never mind... life went on... with huge piles of books silenting gathering more and more dusts and swears....

casual flings here and there was another important thing... while almost every other guy seemed 'not bad' , i kept asking myself... have i really turned that cheap.... thanks to shreemoyee and satabdi who came to my rescue and presented a longer list to confirm its normal and natural... we are young girls huh...

school has been tough... with catfights, partiality, princi vs students scenes but the two most prominent events of my life happened as well

1. M.s. Jahan got married and left kolkata... this was the worst thing that could have happened... the latter part i meant... nomatter how much we try and promise to keep in touch and be as we are.... DISTANCE IN NO WAY MAKES HEART GO FONDER.

2. Mrs. Sengupta left Dio and joined South Point... yes I HATE south point... its more of the 'grapes are sour' case here but i hate the school and mrs sengupta joined it... i mean how could that be? miss was ALL IN ALL for dio... any function, programme, meeting match, anything... it was mrs sengupta all the way.... dio without her is incomplete.... we were so so proud of her.... reliable sources confirm that she had no other way to save her self respect but... REALITY BITES... and it still is hard to belive of dio without her....

leaving dio had become the newest trend this year... with mrs. ghatak(the best history teacher?) joining dps, mrs sengupta joining sp, derek sir leaving, mrs jahan and samantha miss (my favourite in the primary section) leaving off for dubai... and who not... every teacher who made dio stand out left it...... dio started going down the drains.... princi is in australia for the past very many months... mrs lionel is running the school (successfully though) but... things are no more the same... but i LOVE Dio.. no matter what... it made me what i am today... good bad... doesn't matter.... so ma... i was right to tear off the patha bhavan's form to join dio.... yes i love princi as well.... inspite of everything... i know i am biased

we went to hydrabad and had beautiful 10 days with miss jahan (last few days) and everybody else... it made me a different person

i broke some loyal hearts...i really did... i know i was selfish... they probably deserve much better things in life.... good luck!

i have become extremely superstitous... ma says i am being abnormal... let me admit it here... i did not let them wash my clothes during the exams but ma finally landed her palm on my cheek and threw the stinking school dress off in the washing machine.

my aims changed like seasons (as always) with mbbs and engineering and mass and com and law and psychology and what not.... at the end of every dream the key was always extremely hard work and so... I GAVE UP ... i know i am shameless .. it doesn't even bother me...i just feel sad for MA

and finally.... FINALS dude.... gosh....preparations were worse than ever.... i studied like mad in the last two weeks (as always) but this year was different.... the books seemed impossibly huge.... i was almost sure to repeat the year... thankfully... all my superstitions worked.... all my papers were good enough to get a 24 (wondering at my standard???)

last exam brought the big shock of practical exam a day after.... yesterday was chem practical and today was bio and physics.... thank god... they went kind of well.... i made the stupidest mistake ever in bio... moron me... sir said " it is good to know yourself" mean comment but bio could have been better... finally xamzzup.... finally got a chance to land my ass infront of the comp.

all in all.... session was .... ah wateva!!! but yeah as ma puts it, i ruined it the most. a dangerous game will soon begin from next year again... well only if.... i pass.... fingers crossed but for now..........

CHEERS :)